The big day has come !

Posted June 23, 2011 by Alix Henriol

Hey everyone, I leave for the clinic tomorrow, so it’s soon ! It’s very soon ! I’m sorry for not updating my blog more often but I take it that most of you check my Twitter and Facebook which I update almost daily. So I wont be operated in the hospital, no. I will be operated by dr Berwald at Monticelli as it was first planned. I didn’t like the surgeons that operate in the hospital at all. They didn’t even allow me to choose my implant size or anything. I told them I wanted a cup D, to what they’ve answered that I was too petite to have them, and that with my height and weight the maximum they could do was B ! I was completely outraged ! When I think I’ve wasted like 3 months to get this crappy appointment ! But everything is fixed since dr Berwald is going to operate me tomorow !  I’m so looking forward to it, but I’m so stressed too ! Many of you have asked me questions so here are the details about my breast augmentation:

Date:  June 24th 2011

Cup size change:  32A to 32D

Placement:  Submuscular (under the muscle), it’s more painful but it looks more natural !

Operation time:  2 hours

Surgeon:  Dr. Berwald

Cost:  $6000

I should stay only 1 night in the clinic. And even though I never call anyone, and I’ve got noone to call, I bought myself a smartphone ^^

So that I can still get online from the clinic !

Also, you probably know that I’m now a Cover Girl ! And that’s the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me ! 2011 = best year of my life with the media and plastic surgery ! Making the cover of a swedish magazine, to me is a dream come true !  And I’m so happy beyond words !

But I don’t want to talk about my new magazine right now, with the stress and all…I will tell you about it once I’ll have recovered from my surgery !

Xoxo – A

New year’s resolution for 2011: plastic surgery!

Posted January 3, 2011 by Alix Henriol

Hey everyone, I just wanted to wish you all a happy new year and keep you updated with my life. Good things and “bad” things have happened to me recently. I’ve had my ups and downs, but right now I’d say my life’s definitely changing for the better again. I am definitely improving myself on many points.

First I’d need to let you know about some of my new resolutions for 2011. One of the most prominent ones being plastic surgery. I truly believe this will bring me more opportunities in the media. So breast implants are on the way. I’m pretty flat chested actually (33A). You may not notice it because in most of my videos and pictures I’m wearing a padded bra. Then in one of my youtube videos I decided to wear a normal bra, and people were very surprised. They went like “where are your boobs gone??”, “She had bigger boobs in the other videos!”, and they even said I now had the boobs of a 10 years old little boy. They didn’t understand I was wearing a padded bra all along. Personally I love my boobs that way and I would never want to make them huge. I think small boobs look very pretty, at least on me. But I think a cup C or D would suit me well too. I’m naturaly beautiful so I don’t think a boob job could improve my look, it would just draw more attention. Then again I definitely wouldn’t want to have huge boobs, I would hate it. I just want to avoid the need to wear a padded bra. That’s it. I honestly don’t think I would go through this ordeal if it wasn’t for fame. I remember my first photoshoot. The photographer told me I was way too flat chested to realize certain type of pictures. I’ve always kept that in mind. So I’ve made my decision. I just want to be way I look here: http://www.alix-henriol.com/AlixGallery/displayimage.php?album=23&pos=8 or a little bigger but without having to use a padded bra. I just want to spice up my image a little bit. I also plan on having a liposculture or a lifting of my thighs, hips and possibly abdomen. I want to get them redesigned. And finally I got those dark circles around my eyes that I want to get removed. I’ve tried all kind of cosmetic but no luck, so I may need a skin graft. I also have some minor scars on my body that I want to get rid of. I think that’s about it for now. Outside plastic surgery I plan on having a permanent laser hair removal because I dream about not having to shave anymore. I have my first appointment with the dermatologist this month and I’m very excited. I’m even more excited for my plastic surgery although nothing is decided yet. I don’t know which surgeon I will pick or anything yet. So I’m currently in total transformation. That’s why I went blond. I loved my dark hair a lot, and I loved my braids so much. It was pretty uncommun and eccentric but I want to change. I decided to go blond before my first meeting with the journalists. I truly wanted to shine in front of the cameras, and I did. Yeah it was very cool having these dark braids, it definitely gave me some style and was practically my trademark. But something was missing. I think it was a bit too dull. I needed something really explosive. Actually, I haven’t needed to dye, a bleaching has been enough. When the hairdresser’s bleached my hair it naturally went blond. I was very surprised to go blond, and especially a so beautiful blond, the very blond I wanted! Because most people just go white and have to get their hair recolored. However this interest in plastic surgery is not new. When I was 12 I used to beg to get various types of plastic surgeries, including breast and lip implants. It didn’t matter how good I looked, I just wanted to do like all the Hollywood stars. Lol, what an idiotic little girl I was when I look back…Do you truly think I needed lip implants? I have a mouth like the ass of a baboon already. If I had been getting them I would look like Tubba Blubba from Paper Mario right now! And now that I’m in age to get any kind of plastic surgery and that I can afford it, I became very picky. It’s normal I’d say, it’s an operation under general anaesthetic and you do not just throw yourself at the first surgeon you see. Changing your breast size and shape isn’t like changing your hair style. And I’m glad I have grown up about that. And I know you are wondering why does Alix want plastic surgery since she thinks she is perfect? Well, has my perfection prevented myself from changing hair style all along my life? No. I looked gorgeous as a brunette, and so do I as a blond, and so would I with red hair. I just wanted to change. But don’t worry, I’m gonna say it once again, I don’t want to have boobs like Pamela Anderson, not even Tori Spelling. I have some kid’s clothes which I truly like and I want to be able to still wear them. However plastic surgery isn’t only happiness and excitment to me. It causes me stress and fear. Fear of the anesthesia, fear that it will hurt very bad…

To continue with the good news, I am no longer a sleeping pill addict! Do you remember this blog entry I had posted in 2009 describing how badly I was affected by insomnia and the tons of medications I had to take daily? Well, at the start of the entry I specified that it happened all the time, but that I’d write about it only one time. I did it for a reason. I did it because I knew that someday I would pull through. I did it because I knew that God wouldn’t give me up. I knew that the day I would be cured from insomnia I would want to share it with everyone. But my victory wouldn’t have much meaning if you didn’t know how hopeless I was before. So I’m done, I’ve finally got rid of all my sleeping treatments, I now sleep naturally, I take nothing at all. I began fighting to sleep naturally around April 2010. That’s when I’ve started to slowly decrease the doses. Here’s how it all started: I got very sick one night, I was having some horrible stomach cramps (probably aggravated by my pudendal neuropathy), to the point that I’ve called a nightshift doctor. He gave me some mean morphine-like injection which has totally knocked me out. The fallowing day I’ve realised I was still so exhausted by the injection that I didn’t need as many sleeping pills as before to fall asleep. And the day after that it was the same, I was still very tired and didn’t need that much sleeping pills, that’s how I’ve started to get rid of them. I think it took me around 5 month to sleep naturaly. Then there’s been my fake suicide attempt when I’ve taken tons of anxiolytics, and it has actually helped me. Because they have knocked me out for a few days. Certainly not as much as the pain killer injection did. But it definitely made it easier for me to take less sleeping pills. I’ve had some pretty hard night (almost sleepless) during the summer. Not only was I deprived from my usual medications but the heat also prevented me from sleeping. I was having lot of convultions, I felt pretty bad. But I kept on fighting. Thanks to God to have assisted me. Thanks to God to have saved me from the hell of sleeping pill addiction. I can finally sleep in peace. And I need way less sleep than I used to. When I was under medication I needed to sleep for 10 hours to feel well, otherwise I fainted etc. Now I sleep for like 7 hours and I feel healty. If I was still taking these pills I don’t know in what state I would be right now. I have the feeling they were slowly destroying my brain. I had less and less emotion, less and less memory, I failed to concentrate myself, I kept on forgeting things over and over and I’d even say sometimes I had some kind of a little dementia. I mean, when I used to take a ridiculous amount of sleeping spills (like 2 ambiens, 1 bar of lexomil, 50 drops of theralene and 2 or 3 lysanxia), it caused me some panic attacks, I was getting strangely paranoid, I had the feeling I was in a different world, it was scary. I’m so happy not only that I got over it but that I apparently have no after-effect. I am no longer a drug addict. And I realise how lucky I have been that it hasn’t irreversabily damaged my brain. Thanks to God.

Also, I have had a nice Christmas and attended my first midnight mass. My mom didn’t want me to go out by myself that late but I didn’t care, because God was calling me. I’ve had a nice birthday too. On this day I went to the hairdresser to lighten part of my hair even more and get my roots bleached. Then my mom took me to the shoping mall. I didn’t buy anything but I ate lot of cakes and drank lot of chocolat. Yeah, as weird as it may seem there was a little restaurant inside a computer shop! I love eating at the shopping mall, but usually I have to walk around the shopping arcade to find a coffeehouse. I didn’t expect to find a mini restaurant inside a shop. Of course it sucks that I turned 24 and that I’m now 1 year closer from death. I truly feared turning 24. It’s caused me panic attacks at night. My terror of death and aging was really kicking in. I was looking up some information on google non stop. I wanted to know what caused death from age, and what could possibily prevent death from age. I found out something interesting that I didn’t know. Humans do not die because of organ exhaustion. They die because of the telomeres which stop reproducing their DNA. It’s interesting, but scary. Because supposedely at some point all the telomeres would turn into cancer. Cancer is the only immortal cell. However, many scientists claim they’re close from finding the key of immortality, so I’ll trust them. I’ve contacted the Alcor laboratory in Arizona about my cryogenic freezing and they have replied that it was possible that I start on paying for it (every months) while I am still living in France. I have the contract and I just have to fill it.

One other new year resolution I have would be to get cured from Alcock Syndrome (or pudendal neuropathy). The neurological disease I suffer from. But honestly I don’t want to talk about that right now. Just be sure I will eventually find a treatment soon. God wont give me up. Of course it would be smart of me to post a blog entry about this disease so that the day I get cured you can make a comparison. Like for the sleeping pills addiction. But oh well…

On the other hand, I keep on doing my work with the media and right now it’s going very well. I will tell you more when I can!

Happy new year once again!
Xoxo – A

Hello, envy, my old friend…

Posted June 17, 2010 by Alix Henriol

Dear public,

A lot of people have been asking, “What’s the matter with all these alleged nude pics of you surfacing the web?” So I thought I owed you an explaination. I don’t really know where to start, but there’s something I want to make clear: All the “nude” pictures of me that you may find on the internet are fake. And I am the one who made these fake, 6 years ago. I was only 17 years old when I started this complete hoax. I was bored, I was addicted to photoshop, then I figured I could have some fun. I decided to make some fake nude as a joke, and I posted them at Sonic Passion while claiming it was me, while it wasn’t my real body, and sometimes, not even my real face. But noone even knew my real face back then, so it wasn’t much of a problem.

How do you make fake nude you ask? Well, I first selected a body double of my picking. Sometimes I would use a girl with a body remotely similar to mine, sometimes I would use a body of complete fabrication. Like assembling the legs and breasts of 2 different girls in the same picture. I was very playful back then, and I really liked playing pranks to people. Because it was fun, and it definitely drawed people’s attention. Now when I look back I think it was dumb and ridiculous. What is the point in drawing people’s attention since it’s all fake? But boy I was only 17 years old, I was only joking, it wasn’t serious! It all happened almost 7 fucking years ago, I even completelly forgot about these pictures. I’ve grown up, I stopped all these stupid pranks age ago. I mean, come on, it was funny, I laughed my ass off, full stop! You know everyone does crazy/immature stuff when they’re young, but you wont ever hear about them if they’re not famous, because noone gives a flying shit.

Please, allow me to introduce you to one of my favorit body doubles : Amélie from France: http://img228.imageshack.us/img228/3871/surlecanap4.jpg As you can see, she’s wearing exactly the same kind of shoes as me ( http://photos.ibibo.com/slideshow/album/401102 ) , which fooled people even more. Her hands seem similar to mine too. Only problem, her back was covered with tattoes. But with an average photoshopper like me, it wan’t really a problem.

After about 1 hour of photoshopping, here’s the result: http://i297.photobucket.com/albums/mm239/sonicpassion/Photoshoping/A-hcanap.jpg . I removed the tattoes from her back, and photoshopped one of my DISTORTED faces (see bellow what I mean by distorted faces) onto her face. I also turned the picture black and white. As you can see it’s not a nude, it was just a little test I did age ago. I can not show you any original of the nudes as Myspace wouldn’t allow me to. But I’ve used this process for all the fake nudes, yep. Even mixing more than 3 girls in the same pic. But this was really nothing, I can do way better. Whatever I’m not here to teach you photoshop, am I? I just want to apologize to the body doubles, I’m really sorry that it went that far.

A lot of people seemed to have found out the pictures were fake anyway, like pointing “the body’s too weird to be real, this can’t be a human body”. Obviously it looked weird since it was not real…If you were to take a closer look at these pictures, you would even notice that I used a different body/body parts on each one. But I haven’t used photoshop only to make fake nudes. When I was 17 I also distorted my face in an attempt to make me look less human. It was nothing else but a complete hoax, once again. Yup, 2003 – 2004 have been the years of all my jokes.

You know everything’s possible with photoshop. I could have made myself a third arm but I don’t think many people would have believed it. I could have grown myself a fish tail, but I think even less people would have believed it. So I just used to dehumanize my face. I guess it was effective since a lot of people believed it was real. But come on, seriously, how can you think just one minut that this face is for real…? http://i297.photobucket.com/albums/mm239/sonicpassion/Photoshoping/post-6-1122366687.jpg It took me over 24 hours to photoshop this pic! I distorted my eyes, I distorted my mouth, I distorted my nose, I distorted my neck, I changed my skin color, and the list goes on and on and on. This is what I talked about when I said: “noone even knew my real face back then, so it wasn’t much of a problem”.

Never wondered why you can’t find this “faceshot” anywhere on my official website? Well, simply because it’s a fake and my website being official, it only hostes real pictures. Journalists are picking pictures from my official gallery to print in magazines, you understand? And I’m no longer interested in making sick jokes, it was only a hoax that lasted a few months.

But I assure you I didn’t have any bad intention. It was only a little joke! For God’s sake, I was only 17 years old so it happened almost 7 years ago! Who’s never joked here? Wait a minut, how many times did I say that I was only 17 and that it happened almost 7 years ago already…?

I deleted these pictures from my computer since a long time, as you can guess. I just can’t believe someone saved them (the fake nudes) and is reuploading them as an attempt to harm me. I know who did it, and it’s a member from Sonic Passion. Com on, I’ve never been anything but kind to that person, just why doing this to me? I don’t care that the pictures are fake, it’s the intention that counts. Like seriously, I wish I could understand why Sonic passion members hate me so much. But I just can’t because I’ve never done anything mean to them. Come on, how pathetic do you have to be, how jealous do you have to be for doing such a thing? As much as I love being the center of all the attention, I think SP members should seriously move on by now…I assume I should be flattered for being so important in their lives that it’s totally impossible for them to forget about me. But now I just think it’s crazy…

Then again, I know exactly the person who did it, I have his full name, screencaps from Sonic Passion, and…I also have nude pics of him, yep. Because he’s posted these pictures at Sonic Passion, so I still have them. Only, the difference between him and me, is that his nude pics seem perfectly real. So that’s too bad for him I guess! If I was a big meanie I could just repost all his nudes, Sonic Passion screencaps along with his real full name. But you know what? Not every one is mean, envious, jealous or evil. Good people exist, althought I’ve never met any, I know I’m one of them. Why would I rage at someone? How tacky would that be of me? He’s not famous anyway, so it wouldn’t interest anyone.

I don’t hate Sonic Passion members, but I have no more respect or esteem toward them. I used to like them very much, but they’ve betrayed me and the only thing they want is making people judge me in a horrible way. I haven’t made porn, ever. Espacially not at 16-17 years old. Do you even realize it’d be illegal? I didn’t do anything wrong.

Not only have I left Sonic Passion but I’m going to close it definitely. I don’t want to have anything to do with that site anymore, and especially I don’t want to have anything to do with these people anymore. Today I only wish to share my relationship with Sonic with the media. It’s my choice and I don’t care if you like it or not. I’ll impose my law for as long as I live. I don’t owe anybody anything.

When I think I initially started Sonic Passion to make some friends, yeah right, the joke! I was feeling lonely back then, and I wanted to find a person similar to me. As time went on I realized I was WAY happier alone than surrounded by such people. Talk about fucking pixels?! The more I see humans the more I’m falling in love with my cell phone!

Alix x

Magazines, Radio, my growing glory!

Posted May 11, 2010 by Alix Henriol

Hey everyone, I’m very proud to announce you the publication of my first magazine in Sweden! Chances are that you already visited my official website and chances are that you already know this magazine came out about 2 months ago ( http://alix-henriol.com/menu/news.php?readmore=10 )

Yeah I know I should have blogged earlier about that but I kept on being interrupted by new projects. Like my offer from United-Kingdom and my radio interview. Also there’s been the whole building of my IMDB page: http://www.imdb.com/name/nm3797696/ . I’ve also received an invitation for some sort of public appearance but I’m not talking about these new projects until they are done.

So, as you can tell, I’m doing very well! The journalists are being very nice to me, whether it’s online or on my cell phone :) My radio show were very funny actually! The radio host asked me some funny questions lol. I want to upload this interview on my official website but first I’d need the radio’s permission :)

My Swedish interview came out very well too! Of course they sent me the magazine for free :) So far so good! I’m living my dream life and all my dreams are coming true! You know that’s what I talked about in one of my last blogs. When I said God had way bigger plans for me, when I said he loved me and had what’s best in mind. When I said that, I hadn’t received any of these offers yet, but I knew God wouldn’t give me up. I knew he would keep on heaving me up higher and higher.
I give God the glory for everything, for all my success. He is the air I breathe, the beat of my heart, the faith in my soul, and the best father you could ever imagine. God has granted me so many blessings, I would do anything to return the favor.
Today I want to go on TV, and I know I will. Being in magazines, being on the radio, that was some of my childhood dreams. I prayed for it daily, and I am so thankful, God has answered my prayers, I am forever thankful for everything. I know I’m a blessed person. I’m lucky so I’m happy. I appreciate each and every single thing God has put on my way and I consider myself to be a very fortunate person.

My mom is very proud of me too, my mom thinks so high of me…I loved web-fame a lot, but I love all kind of media. Magazines, radio and TV. What I look for is a world-wide fame, I want to travel the world to promote my name.
My mom wants me to go on the Jerry Springer Show in USA, she’s obsessed with that, seriously! Yeah, we have the Jerry Springer Show in France also, it’s subtitled. Well I have to admit my mom is right, this kind of eccentric TV show would suit me very well lol But you know, I’m not really applying for anything for now, I just make my online promotion and journalists come to me! I don’t really know how/where they find me, but they do :) I’ve been very surprised to be approached by some swedish reporter, like totally! The thing is, if I apply for the Jerry Springer Show, or any other TV show, I’ll have to pay for my own fly and hotel stay. I’d only do that as a last resort. Why would I pay for my own travel expenses if journalists want to pay it for me? Such a waste :(
But yeah I’m flattered, I’m very proud to deal with the largest magazines and radio shows from various countries. It’s been a long time I wanted to have a IMDB too, with my own credits, message board and stuff too. Who wouldn’t?

On the other hand, toonophiles seem to love me more and more with a passion (sarcasm) :) http://img571.imageshack.us/img571/8618/53c3bce66e43be4f2095565.png yeah, that’s the kind of mail I now receive. Apparently, Paul truly enjoyes publishing/ distributing my email adresses and MSN. Com on, while I may find these kind of mails to be funny, I can assure you God doesn’t. It is well known, God has no sense of humor and by “sending” people in hell, you are the one doomed to hell. Yup, that’s karma.

So, If it isn’t clear yet, I am now universally hated! :) Even the toonophiles would smash my face in if they bumped into me in a street. Ah, after all, bodyguards exist for a reason x.x

Right, you know God has had lot of work with my health issues also…I suffered an ocular dryness but I found some eye drops and I’m doing way better!! I thank God to have healed me! Still, I’m feeling pretty bad since a while, I have 6 wisdom teeth instead of 4, I have a scoliosis, I have a deflection of the pelvis and the list goes on…But enough with health issues.

News has lately come to my royal ears, that I was a bad christian. That’s right, lot of people have been nagging me lately, even on my facebook. Apparently they think or say that I’m a sinner for chasing after wealth. Oh come on, that’s bullshit lol I can assure you God wants me rich :)

It was pointed out that the Pope lives in luxury — is he less of a mortal than any of us? would someone so extremely studied on the subject of God allow himself such privilige if it were an eternal death blow?

There are a lot of Christians who think that there is somehow, something “noble” about being poor. I find it interesting though, that the man who the bible refers to as “The wisest man who ever lived” (Solomon), was also the richest.

You can be poor and greedy; some of the greediest people I know are poor – and they make their own lives miserable because all they think about is money and hate those that have it.

I will explain you in detail about all these misconceptions in one of my next blogs. You know, God’s already blessed people with money and fame. Just read the bible, and you’ll see.

That said, I gotta go.
God bless!

I am officially bowing out

Posted January 10, 2010 by Alix Henriol

Dear readers,

I’m going to be blunt, I’m going to go straight to the point: Paul is not my best friend anymore. And I sort of do not want to have anything to do with Sonic Passion anymore.

When I first met Paul I was like 17, before web-fame. It was on a Sonic forum and he had this gorgeous avatar of himself and Amy posing together. It was the first time I’d see such a serious relationship from a person to a video-game character. I loved him without knowing him, because we were so alike, we shared similar interests. Yeah I loved him even though he didn’t love me. Why? Because being loved/loved back has never been important in my life (guess I would not have picked Sonic as a husband if it was, right?). Well, as time passed we became friends, even best friends. We loved each other with all of our heart. We had so many things in commun, we bonded over animals which we both liked, we were inseparable.

Then I discovered he were liying to me, about just silly things, he lied to me all the time, it hurt my feeling. But I forgave him, I’m a good person, a very forbearing person. But it sort of kept on happening over and over no matter how many time I forgave him. Then I realized how much he was childish and irresponsible, he didn’t listen to me, he didn’t listen to any of my advices, he just commited errors on errors. He kept on messing with his sites, and indirectly messing with me, as I was part of his sites. He were always doing absurd things as purshasing 5,00000 domain names and not paying his hosting fees. As time went on his foolishness and childish attitude kind of put me off. And I’ve started separating from him. I would log in to MSN just one time a month, just to say hi…While in the past we used to spend hours chatting together everyday.

I know he was sad, I know he missed me, but what else could I have done? Talking to him were like talking in the void. Sure we could talk about games, about our virtual loves etc. But each time I tried to change his behaviour he would say “Yes, I understand, I will never do it again”. But he kept on being irresponsible, no matter how much I argued, no matter how much I screamed. My efforts remained futile.

I was sad and angry, but I still loved him, I still spoke to him from time to time, and I still visited his sites. May it be once in a blue moon…Untill yesterday. Yesterday he really went too far, I can not take it anymore. I’m sorry, but I just can not take it anymore. He just went TOO far in matter of irresponsibility and childishness. So puerile…I’ve spent years warning Paul about his irresponsible behaviour, I spent years trying to help him overcome it. But apparently I’ve just wasted my time. He’s proved it to me very well yesterday…

Then we’ve had a massive argument, I’ve screamed at him and stated it was the end of us, that I was out of his life. And I asked him to delete me from his forum. Then I said farewell, and he’s deleted my account. He was mad at me, he thought I was being unfair, that all that happened wasn’t his fault. Then he’s screamed “Whatever you want you’ll get it!!” and logged off MSN (or blocked me). Then I found out he’s also deleted the entry I had on Toonopedia (which of course, I’ve never asked him to do)…

Before we broke, I called him a fucking idiot, then screamed “serve you right!!!”. Which was an awful thing to do I admit it. I never call people names because it’s low and degrading, and I don’t have to judge people. But Paul wasn’t “people”, he was my best friend, it was just beyond me. It’s forbiden to be rude to strangers, but this rule differs with your close friends. It’s not the first time I insulted him anyway, but even when I scream he wont understand, so let alone normal speeshes.

Paul is a good person, he has a big heart, his relationship with Amy seems similar to mine with Sonic, but that’s about all. I now know that depite this, we are very very different persons. Paul is childish, irresponsible and credulous. He is very naive and shakeable. I am the total opposite. Both of our lives have now become incompatible. But I don’t want Paul to suffer, I don’t want him to be unhappy, he doesn’t deserve that. I don’t hate Paul and NEVER will. During all these years I’ve screamed at him and told him off for his sake. I wanted him to acknowledge his mistakes, I wanted to make him a stronger person. Now I know I’ve failed.

Then last night, as I prayed God, I’ve asked him to forgive me. To forgive all the mean words I had said to Paul. What hurts me the most is that our friendship came to an end on the day of his birthday. It really made feel guilty, I am so sorry that I’ve hurt his feelings, I am so sorry to have wasted his birthday. But after all maybe I was wrong, perhaps Paul is happy with his behaviour, maybe I’m being too judgemental…Right now it’s not like if it mattered anymore anyway. Our friendship belongs to the past, and I know I should never look back. Farewell Paul, I hope you will be happy. And if you ever come accross this blog, then I think it is my duty to tell you this one last time:

1)Never trust anyone, appart from God.
2)It’s okay to be crazy, as long as you’re intelligent.
3)If you want to become famous, make yourself unapproachable.
4)It is easy to dodge our responsibilities, but we cannot dodge the consequences of dodging our responsibilities.
5)Nobody ever did, or ever will, escape the consequences of his choices.
6)It’s no good being credulous and naive. There’s no good in that at all. You’ve got to do it all yourself, and you’ve gotta learn quick. And you can’t look for sympathy either.
7)Good luck Paul, I hope you will have a happy life.

As I said, I am also separating from Sonic Passion. I am not going to go into details but I definitely will never post any shocking content of any sort on the internet anymore, including on Sonic Passion. I want to keep that for TV. You are of course still welcome to purchase as many accounts as you like at Sonic Passion, but it will only be to see archives. My contents are not going to be renewed, my contribution to Sonic Passion is now discontinued. My involvement is terminated. It will be also impossible to interreact with me by any mean. I’ve made my decision, and several factors have motivated this decision. Let just say I got sick and tired with my members, they haven’t lived up to my expectations.

Please, try to understand, I do not want to be known as the furry queen and only the furry queen all my life. So many people would never grow out of that…I want to become so much more than that. I am grateful for all the blessings and opportunities God has granted me in life, but I think he does have even bigger plans for me. My life is all about heaving myself up higer and higher. As astrogolers had stated on my astral study:

“Your determined attitude, and your irresistible desire to play an
increasingly important role in the position you hold, are major assets
for the actual achievement of your goals. You want to shine forth and
to heave yourself up, always higher and higher. There are real
indications of fame, provided that other elements of your chart concur.”

I know that all my life people will exclusively and primarily recognize me as Sonic’s wife and that’s the most important, because it’s who I am, because gaming/virtual reality is the world I belong to. Never forget where you’re coming from. But, I am before everything a World Conqueror, it’s in my genes, and I’ve conquered the furry world age ago now. I am so happy to be in the position I am right now, I am so happy for all the marketing oppertunities and special treatments I have received and definitely intend to use it as a springboard to rise above everything.

Life is all about being empowered, even the richest people want something hard to get. If they have one Rolls-Royce, they fantasize about having two. If they have a closet full of Chanel, they want a closet full of Gucci. This does NOT mean that I would NOT be satisfied if I had one Rolls-Royce and a closet full of Chanel. I am simply explaining you that I will always try to improve my life and to rise above.

Just remembering that I may not know the plans God has for me but I know that he loves me and has what’s best in mind. And even when I’m feeling so distraught, starting on this new life, I am reminded that I’m not alone. I have my wonderful God/Father, and all the wonderful things he has granted me so far.

So, for now I’ll be away, working on my own.

Praise God.

The Father’s Love Letter

Posted November 29, 2009 by Alix Henriol

Current mood:touched
http://discover.godrev.com/?/1/the-fathers-love-letter.html

The first time I watched it I cried myself sick. It has really touched my heart! I believe everyone should see that at least once in a life-time. I agree with everything that is said. This is so beyond words. I love GOD with all of my heart and pray him every night and day. It makes me cry so much.

Please daddy, grant me the glory which belongs to me by divine right.
I love you for eternity.

Love, Alix.

Dapshow online interview

Posted November 2, 2009 by Alix Henriol

Here’s the link to an online interview I did: http://dapshow.com/article/spew-alix-henriol
Comment & Enjoy!

I will talk about my husband, Sonic Passion, upcoming projects and many more topics.

xoxo

Alix.

Starlight is my song!

Posted September 12, 2009 by Alix Henriol

OMG I soooo love this song! Everytime I hear it it’s like I’m hearing myself! It so reminds me of myself!

The sun is rising up on the east side
A chance for everyone
I’ve been dreaming of the city for a long time
Far from my own town

(You)
I see
(Will see)
My dream
(Your dream)
For real
(Come true)

(You)
I will
(Will rise)
(Above)
Above
(The rules)

(Love release our mind, you are what we want)
Heart is pure and thoughts are clear
Not gonna mess around
(Time has taken our life, you are what we need)
Mum and Daddy will be so proud
City please don’t let me down

Starlight
(Starlight has what you need)
Can you give me the fame?
Can you tell me the game?
Oh starlight

Starlight
(Starlight has what you need)
Can you give me the fame?
Can you tell me the game?
Oh starlight

And starlight
(Starlight has what you need)
Can you give me the fame?
Can you tell me the game?
Oh starlight

And starlight
(Starlight has what you need)
Can you give me the fame?
Can you tell me the game?
Oh starlight

Time has come for me to be someone
A rich man, a superstar
And faith is all you need to be the one
Far from my own ground

(You)
I see
(Will see)
My dream
(Your dream)
For real
(Come true)

(You)
I will
(Will rise)
(Above)
Above
(The rules)

(Love release our mind, you are what we want)
Heart is pure and thoughts are clear
Not gonna mess around
(Time has taken our life, you are what we need)
Mum and Daddy will be so proud
City please don’t let me down

Starlight
(Starlight has what you need)
Can you give me the fame?
Can you tell me the game?
Oh starlight

Starlight
(Starlight has what you need)
Can you give me the fame?
Can you tell me the game?
Oh starlight

And starlight
(Starlight has what you need)
Can you give me the fame?
Can you tell me the game?
Oh starlight

And starlight
(Starlight has what you need)
Can you give me the fame?
Can you tell me the game?
Oh starlight

Insomnia distress

Posted June 19, 2009 by Alix Henriol

(Even thought this often happens, I’m writing this entry today in order to give people a peek into my sleeping issus)

Yesterday been a really tough day for me, for I’ve had 2 consecutive days in lack of sleep. I slept only 2 hours thursday, it’s been very hard for me to keep going. I managed to eat a little bit, then I’ve had to lay down at 6:00PM and I was so exhaused I felt I was going to blackout, my heart was painful and I was very nauseous. Fotunatelly I managed not to pas out. I took a pill of lysanxia and started feeling a bit better. I think I was having a tetany fit actually. All my body was shaking and shivering with my teeth chaterring so hard that it caused me a pain in the jaw and in the temples.

Like I really really needed sleep I decided to double the dose of my sleep treatment. I went to bed at 9:40pm, I took 20 drops of theralene, 2 stilnox, half a lexomil and maybe one more lysanxia (I dont really remember how many lysanxia I swallowed down). I’ve been turning around in my bed for like 4 hours, untill I finally fell asleep at  2:00am (approx).

I woke up at 5:00am, then I got up, went to piss, drank some juice and took one more stilnox, then I fell asleep again untill 11:30am.

Today I’m feeling very tired and weak, a bit nauseous also, due to the number of sleeping pills I swallowed down but okay. I just hope I haven’t got myself a bit more addicted. You know, I feel a little dizzy but nothing serious.

Also, I’ve lost a little weight from sleep deprivation…

Poem: Immortal Beauty

Posted February 13, 2009 by Alix Henriol

Hello happy people ♡

Allow me introduce you to my first and only poem “Immortal Beauty”.
As a present for my husband for Valentine Day.
Sorry Sonic…I posted “Immortal Beauty” 2 days too early, I just can’t hold it any longer, I was too exited.

I am not a native english speaker so this poem may have some sort of errors, anyway…I’ve done my best.

Enjoy:

The excitement mounts as the megadrive loads,
“That’s him! I can see him! Right there!”
Now all the people are screaming and shouting
At the guy with long blue hair.

So, who is this babe?
This iconic beauty?
He’s a video-game prince,
Sonic Hedgehog by name.

He leads a heavenly life,
Desired and lusted by millions,
You would have guessed it,
Since he is perfection.

Is it Sonic’s fault he makes humans look like pigs?
Or his fault he’s sexy and hot?
So love and respect him for who he is,
Don’t bash him for the things he’s got!

Is it Sonic’s fault his pixel consistency keeps him forever alive?
Or his fault in a couple of years all your organs will die?
His beauty will never fade when you’ll be old and ugly,
3D models never degrade, such is the big mistery.

If you see him at Station Square,
hold him a crown, buy him jewels,
Let’s not be afraid of the words,
He is a king, it’ll suit him well.

Saving the world, running so fast,
Defeating Eggman too,
starring in games, causing orgasm,
Is there something Sonic can’t do?

He is this gem that blessed earth,
Beautiful, perfect, divine,
Somewhat flawless even from birth,
As prototype from Sega line.

Sonic’s legend started in the past,
God’s beauty poured into a dreamcast,
Could his charm be so wild and pure,
As the day you saw him in Sonic adventure?

His emerald eyes shine so bright,
He dazzles you, don’t deny it,
And his smile lights up the night,
Try to survive the fainting fit.

Always looking wonderful,
He’s the prettiest thing you’ll ever see,
Just look into his eyes, there’s nothing more beautiful.
And he’s the greatest character there will ever be.

Plus, there’s so much more to him than being an idol,
He’s grand, strong and smart,
Just admire all of him as a whole,
His allure is a true work of art.

I proposed him,
Even two times,
Then he said yes,
Now he is mine.

This is something you can’t withstand,
Evidently, I understand,
You are gnawed by jealousy,
Just because he is my husband.

Oh Sonic, I love you with all of my heart!
I adore and worship you!
I’m proud to be your humble, devoted wife,
And I’ll always be loyal and true.